Just finished my final exam for paediatric posting. Last Monday, I had theory papers for PMP and MCQ. We were supposed to have the PMP paper in the morning. But due to blackout, the PMP paper was postponed to the evening. According to Dr Naznin, if the electricity was still not come back till the evening, we need to postpone the theory paper after clinical exam which mean it would be held on Thursday as our clinical exam was on Tuesday & Wednesday. Luckily, the electricity came back at the noon. I don’t want to postpone the theory exam bcz then I would become more anxious to sit for clinical exam. Usually, after we finished our theory paper, we would feel half of our burdens have been lift up. And, we just have to focus on our clinical exam only. But then, if the theory paper was held later, we would feel more anxious to sit for our clinical exam bcz so many thing in the mind to think and remember of.
3 cases that came out in PMP were type I DM, Thalassemia, and AGE. Arghhh.., all of them asked for pathogenesis. DM asked for pathophysiology that can lead to tiredness and polydipsia as well as pathogenesis of one of its complication, Thalassemia asked for pathophysiology that can lead the signs and symptoms, and AGE asked for pathogenesis of the E. coli infection. Each of them contributed 10 marks. I left the questions at the end since it required explaination. But then, bcz there was not enough time, I can’t answer those question properly. I think I would loss a lot of mark bcz of that. Hope I still can pass though bcz the MCQ paper also quite tough.
Yesterday was the day for my clinical exam. As usual, I always be in the last group. For long case I’ve a got a case of asthma while for short case I’ve got case of marasmus. I’m not worried about long case, but I’m a bit worried of my short case. I think I’ve done good but still there were few question that the examiner asked in which I can’t answer. What make me worried was because he is an outsider or in other word an inviting examiner. I don’t know his style. He asked me a lot of questions. Actually, we were not supposed to ask about malnutrition case as it’s for 5th year. But then, maybe bcz there are not much case. The main question that I can’t answer was the difference btwn marasmus and kwashiyokor in term of causes. I knew the differences in term of clinical presentations, but not in term of causes since I didn’t read in detail about it because I never thought that I would get the case.
Usually we would feel very nervous after each clinical exam thinking whether we would pass the exam or not. This is the 1st time I have a bit of confident that I would pass the clinical exam after being in the clinical year. But then I’m still worried bcz clinical exam is so unpredictable. Sometimes u felt as if u would fail yet u passed. And, it is not impossible that it can also be vice versa. This last exam was so important to me bcz it would determine whether I can proceed to the 4th year or not.
Just finished my seminar of AGN with Dr Zain last 3 days. I think I was really lucky. At first, I really didn’t prepare for the seminar. He like to ask a lots and in details which worried me so much. On the other hand, I just took slide from previous grp. I edited it a bit or more accurately I deleted the slides that I can’t explain and make the other slides more simpler bcz I don’t like slide which full of sentences. I preferred to just put the points and elobrate it later during presentation. When the day of the presentation came, I’m still editing the slides and there are still a lots of thing that I can’t understand. I felt so stress and I knew these is the consequence of doing job at the last minute. “Thank” to my addiction toward anime for that. Hehehe…
As I said, I was really lucky. Fortunately, he postponed my seminar to the next day which mean I had a chance to make a new slide of my own for the seminar. And, the luckiest thing is bcz I can ask the note of his seminar from the previous grp. After got the note from Aisyah, I made new slides consist of abt >30 slides. There are a lot of informations that I got from the notes. It’s really helpful in making me understand the disease better. When u have understand the disease, of course then u know how to explain it.
On the day of presentation, I have more confident in myself to explain as I understood the disease better. Just like what I’m thinking before, my seminar ended earlier. At first my friends said that my seminar would probably take 3 hours just like seminar on Nephrotic syndrome. But, since I’ve referred to his note, so there are a lots of thing that I already explained. Therefore, it’s just consumed for about 1 and half hours only.
But then, still there are a lots of things that he added. Dr Zain is so knowledgable. He knows a lots of thing and his information always updated. I felt so lucky for having a chance to have a teaching with him. Learning pathophysiology with him really make u understand the disease better. He know how to correlate the diseases very well. Once u understand the disease, u can manage the patient properly.
At the same times, I felt upset too bcz he is not our permanent lecturer. He is just honourary lecturer who come to our university occasionally when he has free time. I want to have more teaching with him. Eventhough I felt so tired after his class as his class was very long, but at the same time I felt happy too. I have better understanding of the pathophysiology of the disease, thus I enjoyed the learning so much. He’s not only gave me the knowledge, he also made me gain my confident indirectly.
Semalam ku berjanji
Pada diriku ini & jua kepada diriMu
Daku telah berjanji
Tak akan mengulangi kesilapan kulakukan kelmarin
Tapi hari ini Kau saksikan
Diri ini telah lakukan
Dosa yang kujanji takkan ku ulangi
Rasa seperti telah hilang percaya pada diri
Dan rasa amat malu untuk menghadapMu
Kerna ku sering mungkir janji pada diri sendiri
Oh Tuhanku kuharap keampunan dariMu
Oh Ya Allah,
Telah kurasa seluruh nikmatMu
Umpama istidraj yang menggunung tinggi
Kerna kesilapanku yang sendiri tak mampu
Untuk Iltizam pada taubatku…Oh Tuhan
Oh Tuhan
kuharapkan..Kau ampunkan dosaku
Hulurkanlah padaku maghfirahMu
Ku sedar diri ini hanya hamba yang lemah
Oh Tuhan Kau terimalah taubatku..
Last nite I watched “Lage Raho Munna Bhai”. Don’t be surprised bcz I’d watched Hindustan movie. Hehehe… Tp, bukan selalu, just sometimes if there is box office movies. This movie is one of the best Hindustan movies that I’ve seen. There are a lot of good values in this movie.
These are the good values or msgs that I can extract from the movies to share with u.
1. Always be honest. Never lies or cheat. As u tells the lies, u would just entangle urself in a complex matter. But, if u already involve with it, never
be scared to stop the lies and tell the truths.
2. Treat ur parent nicely, especially when they are already old. Talk to them nicely and spend a bit of ur time to cheer them up. Try to do good things to them as much as u can when they are still alive.
3. If u have done a mistake, never been afraid to admit it eventhough u might be punished. Don’t hide it bcz the longer u hide, the more miserable u will feel. U’ve to be responsible of ur own action bcz that is how we matured.
4. Never hold a grudge against those who did bad thing toward u, instead
treat them nicely until they feel ashamed of themselves.
5. When u did something wrong to others, go and apologize to them. Be humble and throw out your ego. U would lose nothing. In fact, u would feel relieve and peaceful after u’ve done it and people would respect u better.
After u watched this movie, semangat utk berbuat baik tu berkobar2. Bcoz in this movie, it has be represented that a good guy would finally win eventough he has to go thru a lot of obstacles at first. But the key word is be brave, patient and never lose the faith. Believe me, u would enthusiastically want to do good things and try as best as u can to become a good person after finished the CD.
Actually, movie ni mengajak penonton utk mengamalkan ajaran Mahatma Ghandi, one of the most famous public figures in India. Since Bollywood is in India, of course the msg is for the Indians particularly. But, there is a saying that says, “When a person speaks, don’t see who the speaker is, but see the contents of the speech.” And, for ur information, this is not a serious movie spt yg u all might imagine. Jalan citenya lawak dan kelakar. The songs are also the same. Kelakar… and when u listens to it, u will feel happy and excited. Pelakon2nya pun x seksi sgt unlike the Hindustan movies nowadays. U all should really see the movies. It’s really a nice story. And if u bought the CD, u won’t feel wasted. Plus, movie ni consist of 2 CDs only. So, u won’t spend much time for it unlike the usual Hindustan movies. Okay the, enjoy the movie….
Benarlah kata org semangat utk study ni ada turun naiknya. Sekejap semangat utk study tu berkobar2. Tp, tgh class la plak. X sampai 5 minit, tetiba je smgt utk study tu hilang terus. Terbang dibawa angin yg lalu. Hmm…, inilah yg dikatakan dugaan ketika belajar. Bile terasa begini, teringat kat ma dan adik2. Besarnya harapan diorg. Terdetik dihati, “Cmne la nasib diorg kalo aku x belaja betul2. Hanya aku je tempat utk diorg bergantung”. Terasa sebak di hati bile teringatkan diorg. Lebih2 lagi dgn keadaan famili skrg ni. Betapa diorg mengharapkan kejayaanku. Kalo aku x berjaya, mcm manalah masa depan adik2ku nanti. Bile pk cmtu, terus smgt utk study tu dtg balik. Only them can motivate me. Because they are the only person that I have…
