50 years old Malay lady from Kemaman, Trg was admitted to HTAA about a week ago with the complained of progressive blurring of vision of both eyes for 4 years. She was diagnosed with advanced stage of proliferative diabetic retinopathy and was admitted for operation of the left eye. The patient was a very poor patient and lived far away. However, after a week stayed in the hospital, her operation was postponed because the doctor in-charge was very busy thereby she was discharged.

Work as a doctor, it cannot be denied that the work is so busy. So, sometimes the operation have to be postponed. I do understand that and I didn’t blame the doctor. What I want to highlight here is that why not u gave a money to the patient for the “tambang”. There are not many patient that are so poor today. So, why not helping them a bit. Just consider it as “sedekah”.  Don’t u think it is ur responsibility that the patient was admitted for nothing? It might not be a big deal for u. But it is a big deal for a patient who just earned about RM20-30 per day. Sometimes, they have to fast just to save the money. Sometimes they have to borrow the money from other just to come to the hospital. Try to put urself in their shoes, then u’ll understand them better…. For u not being able to help them much, why not at least help ease their burden a bit?

“When I saw you lying on the bed, I’m thinking I don’t care anymore if you want to spend your time at the school. Go on with it. It’s so much better to see you were so indulged with your work, rather than seeing you lying weakly on the bed. You looked so energetic and full of confident when u at ur work. I hate to admit it, but you glowed. U have the charisma of being a leader. People looked at you, admired you and followed you. That’s why the other teachers have so much respect in you, right. And, that’s why you enjoyed being in the school. You felt happy and contented.

I could still recall of your images standing in front of microphone being a chair person. Your voice, your posture, your opening speech…, I can still play those scene in my mind. Did you know that when the program was not being chaired by you, it felt as if it lack of something. It had no more umph. Your voice gave programs its own energy.

You just got a position of being a leader. You haven’t yet show off your skill. You still have a lot of things to do, right. You have not yet fulfilled your dream, so how could you leave? So, go on, just do your work. It’s ok as long as you looked alive. Hence, please live…, live…, and live…, so that you could enjoy your work again.”

When you were sick, I always want to say those word to you. They were always in my mind. But I don’t know why I could voice it out and keep on holding it. Now I wonder, would it be any differences if I say those words to you? Would it turn the situations? Would a miracle happen? Would you become energetic again? Or at least, would you live longer?

AS FOR THOSE QUESTIONS THERE ARE ONLY ONE ANSWER…

The secret to the beauty is a smile. I already knew the secret, but yetI still couldn’t find the key for the secret box. I’m still searching the location of the key plus the secret box. Where is actually the key and the secret box? I wonder what would happen after I open my secret box….

Senyum seindah suria,
Yg membawa cahaya,
Senyumlah dari hati,
Dunia mu berseri.

Senyum umpama titian,
Dalam kehidupan,
Kau tersenyum ku tersenyum,
Kegembiraan menguntum.

Senyum kpd semua,
Senyumanmu amatlah berharga,
Senyum membahagiakan,
Dgn senyuman terjalinlah ikatan.