Honestly, I’m so scared. I’m very… very… scared. Listening to the word O&G itself is enough to cause a nightmare. Whenever I step into the class, my heart beat so fast, my hands sweat and tremor, my breath become short and shallow. It’s a very traumatic posting to me.

But, as Prof. Mokhtar said, it is not a choice for me to choose. I’ve to go through it whether I like it or not. So, I have to take this chance to improve myself. I’ve gone through a lots of things, I would not give it up now.

There is no more friend to be with me since they all go for elective. Nobody can console and comfort me anymore like before. I have to pass through it by myself. I have to be strong. I must be strong.

I cannot depend on my friend anymore. They can become the bricks and cements. But I’m the pillar. No matter how good the quality of the bricks and the cements, but if the pillar is weak, the building will still collapse.

“Oh Almighty God, please give me a strength to face this test and challenge. I’m a very weak person and only you who I can turn my face to. I believe that you would not burden me with a test that is beyond my capability. Please help me passing through this test smoothly, calmly and with brave. Please help me gain a good knowledge and experiences from it. You are the One who can help me, the Most Beneficient and the Most Merciful.”