Yesterday, I’ve a talk with one of my lecturer. I told her a lot of things which I didn’t manage to tell others before this. Actually, I never thought that I would tell ther all those things. But, because she is so understanding and willing to listen, it came out automatically. Thankfully, I felt so relief after talking to her. She is so kind and soft-hearted. I’m so surprised when I saw her crying while listening to my story. She is the 1st person who do so. Actually, I also wanted to cry when I told her the story, but I managed to hold it in front of her. No matter how much I want to cry and I wish for someone to comfort and hug me, I need to hold on because I’ve to be strong. But then once I stepped out of her room, I started to cry too. Hehehe… Not only because it reminded me toward my m**, but it was also because she was too kind to me.
Actually, I haven’t talk about it to a lecturer for such a long time. I always telling myself not to easily talk about my feeling with the lecturers because they couldn’t be trusted. What I’ve been through in matriculation and here were more than enough to give me a reason not to do so. However, when she was willing to listen to me like that, I couldn’t help myself but to tell her.
When she was crying, she said “sorry” to me. And I, on the other hand, deep inside my heart, I want to say “thank you so much” to her for dropping her tears for me. I felt so grateful because there are still a good doctor like her. Her tears showed to me that she has the feeling of empathy. Unlike other doctors who are heartless, she is different. She proved to me that she is a true doctor and a true lecturer.
P/S: Thank you so much doctor. May Allah bless you always and reward you in the Hereafter.
