It is one of the famous Malay’s idioms that I’ve learned. It carries a deep meaning behind it. It asks us to think carefully before say anything.I have never taken the idiom so seriously until the past few days.

Two years ago, I have said a harsh word to one of my dearest person. I didn’t intend to say so. It was a slip of tongue. I was emotionally unstable during that time. I knew she cares. But I simply did not want to believe it. I was afraid that she is just the same like FMA. Saying okay at first, but abandoned me later. So, I wanted to test her. I wanted to know how she would response after hearing those words. I don’t really remember her answer, but she was quite upset and annoyed.

Two days ago, I met her. I did not remember the incident at all until up to one moment when our conversation led to it. I never knew that those words hurt her so much. When she mentioned about it, I felt so bad. All of sudden, I felt so awkward and uncomfortable. I was so ashamed of myself that I don’t think I have a gut to face her again.

I regret it so much. Sadly, nothing could undo my mistakes. No matter what, I could not turn back the time neither erase those hurtful words from her memory. The only thing that I could do is merely to ask for forgiveness. However, I don’t think it is enough to cover for it. I wish I could at least heal her hurtful feeling… Huhuhu…

Now when I think about it, I could not believe that I said those words to her. How could I say it to her when she was so kind to me? Despite everything she did for me, how could I hurt her feeling? She didn’t do anything wrong. All she did was just care for me. Just because FMA ditched me, it didn’t mean that she would do the same. Argh…, I felt so awful and guilty!!!

p/s: Dear Cikgu RD, I’m sorry… I’m really sorry… I hope you can forgive me…

When it comes to money, don’t be too calculative. It is true that the husband is the one whom should give the money to his wife. But, it is only applicable for a wife who doesn’t earn any money, a housewife…

Why is the reason the husband allow the wife to work in the 1st place? The answer is to increase the household income, isn’t it… So, the working wife should also contribute for the spent… Don’t let the husband pay for everything… The wife should also help. Especially when both of your income are almost the same or the husband earns less than the wife.

Don’t be too calculative because it will become the source of fighthing and quarrelling. For the sake of marrital harmony, tolerate each other. The wife will never loss anything. In fact the husband will feel very grateful and appreciate the wife better. Share the money like you want the husband to share the chores.

Nevertheless, if the husband earns more than the wife, then you can let the husband pay for everything. But, it is never wrong if you pay once a while, right?

And when you pay for the spent, don’t let the husband take the advantage on you. Don’t pay for everything. The husband is the head, so he is the one who should take the lead. The wife is there to help.

p/s:Final words from Dr Nora – An advice for young couple

Last week, I went to matric to visit my lecturers. I went there twice, before going to Sabah and after coming back from Sabah. Actually, my true plan was to visit them before going to Sabah. However, I didn’t get to see Mdm Zahala since she had EL because her daughter was sick. So, she told me to go and see her after coming back from Sabah. Since I didn’t have other plan, I agreed.

I met Mdm Fariza twice. Apparently, she didn’t change at all. Still looked young. Got to attain the secret from her… Hehehe… We talked a lots. She told me her ‘secret’. Whenever she dissected a rat with us, she was acting strong whereas in reality she was scared. When I heard her, I smiled. She is a gentle and softhearted type of person, so no wonder if she is scared because that is how she is. Oh ya.., she reminds me toward Dr Ailin. When I talked to her, I didn’t feel any gaps between us. She makes me feel like a friend. I’m lucky that I met her.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I met Mdm FMA too. Honestly, if possible I don’t want to meet her because I don’t want to be reminded of the past. But at the same time, I also want to know how’s she doing. So, actually I felt grateful that I met her. I have a lots of people supporting me now, so it’s okay. I’m happy that I don’t have any grudge feeling toward her. I don’t want to look back. Whatever it is, she was my lecturer and she had been good to me once before.

As for the second time, I went there alone. I think I was lucky since I got the chance to meet Bro Suhaimi who came for part time work after his retirement. I also met Bro Mahathir. He looks old, but he is still happy go lucky like before. They were very happy seeing their ex-student coming and visiting them. I think they felt proud that their student finally graduated. Seeing the smiles on their face, I felt happy too. Unfortunately, I forgot to take a picture with them… Huhuhu…

This time I met Mdm Zahala, of course. She looks thinner and older. Probably because of too many things to handle with 2 small kids. We had our lunch together and had a lots of chit chat. Luckily, I got a gift from her. A long sleeve shirt. I’m so touched. Never expect that I would get the gift from the lecturer. She will always be in my heart. Although I didn’t get a chance to meet Tina, Sara & Zafran, but insya-Allah we will meet later…

p/s: Mdm & sir, thank you so much for all your kindness and support… I’m so lucky to have all of u besides me… =)